Mind is a very strange thing which is not present in any part of the body, yet it has complete control over the life of a human being. If the mind wants, it can take a human being anywhere. When the mind is restless, even eating and drinking becomes forbidden for the human being. I have not understood till date what is this mind and in which part of the body is it found. If it was like the kidney or liver, then I would have probably changed it, but till date no scientist knows in which part of the body it is located. When we do not know, then how can it be changed? There are ups and downs in our life and this is the reason that we consider these ups and downs as the calculation of happiness and sorrow. The purpose of life is that life goes on and never stops. When we are happy, we are happy and when we are sad, we become restless and when we are restless, then we try to know the world, what is the world, what is life, what is the body, we do not know such questions which no one has given a precise answer till date, we start searching for those questions because our mind is restless. When we are sad, we start searching for those questions. When we are sad, our mind becomes restless. Scientists say that this happens because of our hormones, but I have not understood one thing till date that hormones are present inside the body, but why do we get such thoughts only when we are sad? Why don't we get such thoughts when we are happy? Psychologists say that when we are sad, there is more pressure in our brain, due to which the blood pressure of a person starts becoming high and when the blood pressure is high and such hormones become active, due to which such thoughts come in the brain. This is a scientific thought, but I do not believe so. I believe that the reason for the ups and downs in every person's life is the person himself, because the life we live, the work we do in our life, the path of our life is decided by those works. This is the reason why there is more instability in our life. The life of a human being is very different from all the other creatures on earth because we are always in search of happiness, while we ourselves do not know what happiness is. We only know that when we are happy, we are happy, there is an enthusiasm within us. That is what we call happiness and when we are sad, we cry, thoughts arise in us. A flood of Anshul's questions fill our mind and we start getting disturbed with our life. Many people get so disturbed with their life that they even commit suicide. This is also an Anshul question of my life that why does a person commit suicide? What problem does a person face that he kills himself? I don't know what will happen to this world? What will happen to you and me? All this is a calculation of my mind. Nothing more than this. We do what the mind says. I often think whether my life is mine or not. You must also think whether your life is yours or not. This is a question about which no matter how much a person writes, it is less. Our parents give us birth and until we grow up, they take care of us and fulfill all our needs. But when we grow up, we should fulfill our needs ourselves. But people like me could not do this. Why can't I do this? I have no answer to this. Is it right or wrong to depend on parents throughout life in my opinion? It is right and it is wrong, if we are dependent on the parents who gave birth to us, then what is wrong in it, and if we are dependent on them, then when will we become dependent on ourselves, this is also a big question because parents will not be there forever, after a certain age, death of a person is certain, when parents are not with us then what will happen to us, this is also a big question Parents educate their children so that they can be successful and lead their own lives, but when the child grows up and starts earning money, he starts distancing himself from his parents. Although many people do not want to be away from their parents, but they have to do this to fulfill their needs in earning money. Sometimes people leave their parents. In foreign countries, we often see that children do not live with their parents after growing up. They settle in their own world and are happy in this world. When they become parents, their children also leave them. Perhaps this is the culture of those countries, but it is not so in India. In India, three to four generations still live together in a family. This is due to Indian culture and traditions. Whatever we are today, perhaps it is because of our parents. Some people say that we became successful by our hard work, but I do not agree with this because no one can be successful without the upbringing of parents. Yes, it is a different matter that a person succeeds when he works hard, but when the parents do not give birth to him, then Your success will have no value if you are not in this world then how can you be successful some children are orphans from birth they do not know about their parents if they say this then it is true but those whose parents are in this world and they know about their parents they have no right to say that they themselves have become successful every parent lives for their children only what have I started with, from where did I start and where am I reaching this is the speed of my mind which is making me wander here and there the mind is also a very strange thing sir I do not know who made this mind and why it was made where was the need to make it one is where it is located in the body it is not known instead of talking about here and there it is better that I do some other work so that I can try to bring my mind under my control. It's morning now, today is 27th June 2023. The sun has risen and I am still lying on my bed, talking to myself. I got up and went to freshen up. After freshening up, I brought milk and went to the bathroom to take a bath. My wife got up and made tea. We both sat together and drank tea. I don't know what happiness my wife gets from this. Sitting together and drinking tea, eating food in the same plate. Sometimes I feel uncomfortable with this but it also feels good. These are the small joys of life which are not visible to humans. There is a lot of confusion in my life but there are many small joys too. No matter how sad a person is, no matter how troubled or frustrated he is, we should always look for small joys and be happy in them. I do not lack anything. If seen in one way, I am the happiest person in the world. I want to thank God who gave me birth in a good family, gave me good parents, gave me birth in a good understanding. I have all the happiness of the world but still I am unhappy because perhaps I am short of money or I want to achieve something else. I feel that God wants me to do something else and I am not ready to follow the path he wants to take me on and perhaps this is my biggest weakness or I should say that the biggest reason for my sadness is that I am not able to do what I want to do and I am afraid of it. I do not know the reason for my fear but I know this much that I am a coward and I accept the fact that I am afraid of everything and this is the reason why I lie the most because I am afraid.A person who is afraid will lie, one who is fearless will speak the truth. I do not have fearlessness at all. My daughter who was sleeping till now, I woke her up to drink milk and she hugged me and went back to sleep. She is 3 years old now but the biggest happiness in my life is my daughter. Whenever I see her face, it feels like I forget all my sorrows. I don't know why, I get such joy that I feel like I have won the whole world and I am the only emperor of this world and this whole world is my kingdom. My daughter is the biggest reason for my survival, otherwise I would have tried to kill myself somewhere, but perhaps I could not. Due to the love for my daughter, I picked her up and fed her milk and took her to the bathroom to pee. Now I was ready to go to work, but there was no work. Then from there, I would go to the tea stall, smoke a cigarette and check the phone. This had become a part of my life. I would sit there and talk to myself for an hour and then in the afternoon when I would feel hungry, I would go home. I don't know when there will be a change in my life. I have to know myself. I didn't know what I should do, I left my house and put my daughter in the car and took her for a little stroll and then dropped her home. Then I went and sat at a tea stall. I took a cigarette and started smoking and started watching some videos on my phone. After some time I got up from there and went to another tea stall and sat down and started smoking. There were many people sitting around and I was watching videos on my mobile. To relieve my restlessness, I started listening to Osho's sermons. I am not a fan of Osho, but I definitely agree with his words. I listen to many of Osho's sermons, although I have not read any book written by him because I don't have money to buy a book and neither do I have any interest in reading a book, but I watch Osho's videos and I was watching one such video in which Osho was telling how to remain calm in life, how to keep the mind calm. Before this, I showed a video about Vivekananda's teachings on how to keep the mind calm, but I agree more with Osho's words because he is very close to my life and I was watching such videos when one video told something about fear. He said that fear does not exist and I laughed a little after seeing him that ask the person who is scared whether he has fear or not, it is easy to say but when it affects you then it becomes very difficult but he said one thing right that if you want to overcome fear then learn to face it and fear always goes with lies and not with truth, I very much agreed with this, I switched off my mobile and started thinking over it.
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